what is happening???

Yesterday i made my family quarrel again..ya..it is always my fault.....but i couldnt understand why he always choose to avoid it every time..always choose a solution that will only cause more anger in my heart...he thinks everything must use violence....even though it will not solve anything at all..
today i am going late to work..probably will work till midnight....so tired....last saturaday and sunday i was sitting at box 6...but i need to say something...to customers:"there are no emergency lanes ok???if have reservations..pls go to gold class....and pls dunn cut Q....and box 6 or box 1 is not any information counter also..stay in line and wait for your turn....." ==
my head keep spinning since yesterday morning..dunno y...???having weird dreams lately too..even though ppl said that dreams are nothing..but since i was a kid..i dream almost everyday..and sometime..i can even remember it....that sucks...and makes me tired....
i hope when in the future..i wont have a family which only sees money as a factor to stay together....i dun want a family that is left with only responsibility but no love at all.....money is important..but not as important as support and love to our love ones..right???

MY life......

What is my life going to be if I give up my dreams now and follow what my parents say???Will it turn up right....????
我只是想完成我的音乐梦想。。。。。我知道我并不特别。。。。没有像别人（周董，方文山）那么特别。。但是。。我爱音乐。。。那还不够吗？？？音乐。。。它。。。能给大家快乐。。。悲伤。。。。还有千多种的心情。。。对吗？？？
你。。当初。。。。是你要我学音乐的。。有一次。。我很想放弃。。。我还跟你们吵架了。。。你们还是逼我去。。。我听了。。我去。。。现在。。我要学更多有关音乐的东西。。你却说要我越早完成越好。。。。你到底要我怎样。。。如果你那么么不想要我爱上音乐。。。。那为什么当初带我去学。。。我在想。。。你未必太自私了一点啊？？为了他还有你自己退休以后的钱。。竟然要我放弃音乐？？？你那么不相信我的实力吗？？？你为什么总是爱把我跟别人拿来比啊？？？我是你女儿。。。。你要相信我！！！而且。。你真的有时伤了我的心。。。竟然说你们一分钱也不想出让我读大学。。。。。你们知道。。。。你这样说。。。让我想。。你们是没有在自持我的。。。。为什么你们要这样啊？？？