what is happening???

Yesterday i made my family quarrel again..ya..it is always my fault.....but i couldnt understand why he always choose to avoid it every time..always choose a solution that will only cause more anger in my heart...he thinks everything must use violence....even though it will not solve anything at all..
today i am going late to work..probably will work till midnight....so tired....last saturaday and sunday i was sitting at box 6...but i need to say something...to customers:"there are no emergency lanes ok???if have reservations..pls go to gold class....and pls dunn cut Q....and box 6 or box 1 is not any information counter also..stay in line and wait for your turn....." ==
my head keep spinning since yesterday morning..dunno y...???having weird dreams lately too..even though ppl said that dreams are nothing..but since i was a kid..i dream almost everyday..and sometime..i can even remember it....that sucks...and makes me tired....
i hope when in the future..i wont have a family which only sees money as a factor to stay together....i dun want a family that is left with only responsibility but no love at all.....money is important..but not as important as support and love to our love ones..right???