my result...

Hmm..5 A+, 2 As, 2 B+ and 1 B..means its 7 A1, 2 B3 and 1B4...haiz...should i feel happy???i am not sure ler...
I chose to take diploma in mass com...but my parents..haiz...still want me to get scholarship...
what should i do now???they want me to go overseas..where should i go ....?not sure also...
my whole path is so blury..dunno y...everyday keep thinking this and that..so tired...
but nvm....tomorrow i want to stay happy..we are having a gathering for our teachers...
at night will go to my old school for the performance they are having..
HOPE I will be happy^^

对着自己说话

我想要的
并不是真的
是永远在记忆里的梦
就算多努力
它还是像空气一样捉不到

走一步
退一步
最终还是在原点
难道
要这样走下去

要实现梦想
就要很坚强
我很抱歉
因为我不是坚强的她

要实现梦想
不是很简单
我才决定
因为你们我才放弃它

因为你们
所以我才不要你们
因我而伤心
如果你们伤心
我也伤心

爱你们
因为你们是我的家人
就算我哭了一整夜也好
就算我有多舍不得放弃
我还是为了你们而放弃

人生嘛。。

人生。。。
像一场戏。。
这是每个人说的话。。
但我不赞同。。
因为。。
戏是假的。。
而人生。。
是现实和残酷的！！！

也许。。
有些人会反对我这么说。。
但是。。
我说的是真的。。
因为。。
我的人生就是这样。。
永远都是现实以及残酷。。

还有四天就要拿成绩。。
我不是没有信心。。
只是。。
我怕现实并不是我想象的那样。。
我怕又再失败。。
如果我再失败。。
我怕我爬不起来。。

我妈。。
一直问我以后要干嘛。。
我怎样回答你啊。。
我想要读音乐你反对。。
如果我告诉你我要读大众传播媒体。。
你不是发疯？？

我决定了。。
我选择那科系是因为它跟音乐很相识。。
至少。。
我不会太伤心。。
打算选择拉曼学院。。
这样好吗？？

一旦选择了这条路。。
我不能放弃。。
千万不能。。

加油啊！

热

天气好热哦!!
突然想念工作。。
因为可以吹冷气。。
哈哈==
每晚都很难睡觉
的确。。
家里有冷气就好。。

但我也很想他啦。。
虽然只是一个星期没见面。。
但我希望。。
每天能够和他在一起。。

天啊。。嗨。。

迷路

又迷路了。。
该走这条还是那条。。
曾经有三条。。
可是。。
那条被他们给毁掉了。。
走不下去。。
我放弃了。。
现在。。
心好空。。
好像有东西消失了。。
十年多了叻。。
现在放弃。。
好舍不得。。
他们理解我的心情吗？？

剩下两条。。
第一条。。
我想要。。
可是要到那里实现它呢？？

第二条。。
我不想要。。
因为那不是我的选择。。
要怎么办呢？？

我每天都在想。。
一天到晚在想。。
很烦。。
真得很烦。。
可是。。
决定要快点做。。
因为。。
时间不多了。。
成绩大概下星期就要出了。。

曾经有个朋友。。
可以跟他诉苦。。
现在。。只能对着电脑打字诉苦。。
日子就这样过了三个月。。
他留下来的痕迹。。
永远都留在我心中。。

但我有他。。
所以我并不怕。。
我相信他。。
因为他是重要的人。。

Life in a mess!!!!!

First...i failed my exam and I have to stop YAMAHA...I dont want to stop..love music very much..i really miss them...my friends especialy..I have been 10 years there..U want me to leave..very hard....
Second...I dunno when will my SPM results is coming out..and i am very anxious about it because I dunno where will I going to be sent to....
Third...I am resigning my job...damn it...now have to think what am i going to do next..which makes me want to go mad..because i get a job so i wont be day dreaming bout all these problems....just running away..but i stil have to face it..NOW!!!!
Forth...both my parents seems like they are having different opinions....father dont mind i study mass com but hopes i take up journalism(his path once....but i want broadcasting)...and i think my mother wants me to study science subject like pharmacy or etc....(not my type, even though i am a science student)...and both of them want me to enter local u..its not that i hate them and even though they are among the top in the world...i dont see any future there in my head...i mean for myself..
Fifth..boyfriend issues....his mother knows about our relationship..and she is right...there is still a long road to go...concentrate in your studies...even becoming 'friends'..but dont do wrong things..coz..not good for both families.......i am happy with him...seems like i cant live without him...coz i will feel lonely....I know its not a right time to get into a relationship...but i want to take it slow and steady at the same time..i also dont want to lose him....its God will whether this is our destiny to be together...I trust Him that one day..i will meet my half apple..no matter i met him already or not..

Chinese New Year

wahaha..chinese new year...everyday also eat T.T..i gain weight le la...scary......i need to exercise d..haha
yesterday i followed my family back to my mother hometown(tangkak,johor) to pray grandma and see my aunt..haiz.....my uncle kena mild stroke..he aledi 60 stg...got diabetes some more...see him i also ke lian him..coz his sis also dun want go back see him..
but my big aunt more worse le....now ..because of diabetes..she blind d... cant walk...cant eat by herself..need ppl to help her....i feel sad for her..now she have to wash her kidney everyweek also ....haiz....i am very scared she wont hold on that long..really scared i will loose another family member..but wat choice i have...ppl still will leave this place one day..it is the circle of life...right??
i have been thinking seriously these days whether to stop my music or not..coz i failed my exam for the 4th time...my cousin suggest i go study business management..hmm.....
hehe..yesterday i ate strawberry..but this type different o..big big de..and sweet some more..@@
my chloe...haha..sometime see her like very ke lian...coz..like nobody bother her like that...haha..but she quite smart o..hehe..can climb gate d..dunno how...from back can climb until infront...haha....cute chloe..love her very much....and also...yean chee....hmm..i dunno y..feels like i am not ready yet.............T.T