Chinese New Year

wahaha..chinese new year...everyday also eat T.T..i gain weight le la...scary......i need to exercise d..haha
yesterday i followed my family back to my mother hometown(tangkak,johor) to pray grandma and see my aunt..haiz.....my uncle kena mild stroke..he aledi 60 stg...got diabetes some more...see him i also ke lian him..coz his sis also dun want go back see him..
but my big aunt more worse le....now ..because of diabetes..she blind d... cant walk...cant eat by herself..need ppl to help her....i feel sad for her..now she have to wash her kidney everyweek also ....haiz....i am very scared she wont hold on that long..really scared i will loose another family member..but wat choice i have...ppl still will leave this place one day..it is the circle of life...right??
i have been thinking seriously these days whether to stop my music or not..coz i failed my exam for the 4th time...my cousin suggest i go study business management..hmm.....
hehe..yesterday i ate strawberry..but this type different o..big big de..and sweet some more..@@
my chloe...haha..sometime see her like very ke lian...coz..like nobody bother her like that...haha..but she quite smart o..hehe..can climb gate d..dunno how...from back can climb until infront...haha....cute chloe..love her very much....and also...yean chee....hmm..i dunno y..feels like i am not ready yet.............T.T

what is happening???

Yesterday i made my family quarrel again..ya..it is always my fault.....but i couldnt understand why he always choose to avoid it every time..always choose a solution that will only cause more anger in my heart...he thinks everything must use violence....even though it will not solve anything at all..
today i am going late to work..probably will work till midnight....so tired....last saturaday and sunday i was sitting at box 6...but i need to say something...to customers:"there are no emergency lanes ok???if have reservations..pls go to gold class....and pls dunn cut Q....and box 6 or box 1 is not any information counter also..stay in line and wait for your turn....." ==
my head keep spinning since yesterday morning..dunno y...???having weird dreams lately too..even though ppl said that dreams are nothing..but since i was a kid..i dream almost everyday..and sometime..i can even remember it....that sucks...and makes me tired....
i hope when in the future..i wont have a family which only sees money as a factor to stay together....i dun want a family that is left with only responsibility but no love at all.....money is important..but not as important as support and love to our love ones..right???

MY life......

What is my life going to be if I give up my dreams now and follow what my parents say???Will it turn up right....????
我只是想完成我的音乐梦想。。。。。我知道我并不特别。。。。没有像别人（周董，方文山）那么特别。。但是。。我爱音乐。。。那还不够吗？？？音乐。。。它。。。能给大家快乐。。。悲伤。。。。还有千多种的心情。。。对吗？？？
你。。当初。。。。是你要我学音乐的。。有一次。。我很想放弃。。。我还跟你们吵架了。。。你们还是逼我去。。。我听了。。我去。。。现在。。我要学更多有关音乐的东西。。你却说要我越早完成越好。。。。你到底要我怎样。。。如果你那么么不想要我爱上音乐。。。。那为什么当初带我去学。。。我在想。。。你未必太自私了一点啊？？为了他还有你自己退休以后的钱。。竟然要我放弃音乐？？？你那么不相信我的实力吗？？？你为什么总是爱把我跟别人拿来比啊？？？我是你女儿。。。。你要相信我！！！而且。。你真的有时伤了我的心。。。竟然说你们一分钱也不想出让我读大学。。。。。你们知道。。。。你这样说。。。让我想。。你们是没有在自持我的。。。。为什么你们要这样啊？？？

my trip..day 1 and day 2

hmm..my class trip..we left klang around 10pm..on the way..we watched around 2 movies....but almost everyone slept around 3 stg..but i only managed to sleep around 4 stg but we reached the kuala perlis around 6 stg in the morning..so fast..we went with 5S3..so 2 buses lo..but more worse is that that day is a public holiday so the jetty is packed with a lot a lot of people...once we reached there..wa....hehe..we saw 5S5 at the langkawi jetty..they were on their way to pulau payar..that day...after we left our luggage at a place we straight went to small islands and yun fu dao....we can see many eagles too..but the waves very rough la...rough until like roller coaster...on a bumpy track..haha..once.. the boat went boom boom boom.....a bit scary..but fun^^

that day we had bbq..nice o!!but the food a bit spicy..the dong fen lo..put chilli padi....but that nite o..the guys went drinking until some of the girls went mad....coz we scared that stg happened..but luckily ntg happened..so..that was day 1 and day2!!!

haiz...

sick...sick again...since when????since i finish my SPM..i tot i recover le..then i fever again during my class trip...2nd time....3rd time was after my class trip.....i think to day is 2nd day le.....hope i will recover soon.....i must recover...

talking to myself here arent gonna work..but i have been sleeping the whole day already....now..i cant sleep...

my bro format the comp..now i cant read chinese and my class trip photo is missing!!!!!!

y my day today so bad???

hope tomorrow will be a better one!!!

病了....

我..最后还是认输了...他说..他原谅我.....我们又开始了...
我终于考完了SPM....昨天生病还硬着头去玩和逛街...搞得现在还生病....
我昨天也买了一件裙..好喜欢....也拍了大头贴!!!
明天晚上..我要去LANGKAWI了．．．好期待！！！
可是．．要坐８小时的巴士．．．不简单．．．
说到生病．．．．我一直发恶梦．．每次起来都哭．．．而且．．梦里．．有他．．．．应该没事啦．．．．

love....or friends?

what is love???i dunno that feeling anymore...and it is hard for me to believe in it anymore....the best way???stay as friends...friends...are pure...friends...are not that complicated....its hard to live in this world...where lies always surround us..plus challenges in your life..makes u more hard to live in this world..thats y...letting it go...will minus one headache.....
blame if u want...i give up in this...
but we will still remain as friends.^^