变

是你变了...
还是我变了???

我不知道...

只希望你今天下午打来
不是问我妈车牌..
而是问我一句: 你病好了吗?

我这样会不会很贪心啊?

假期

我的假期只剩下几天
但我好希望快开学
我想念我的朋友..
想念到疯狂了..
哈哈!!夸张..

呼吸越来越困难了...

幸好你..

一直都在^^

我很坏..

都是我的错...
不是你的...

我害了你...

对不起....

我知道你不想听...
但...

我没有别的话说了....


都是我不好...............

not supposed to be here

I am not supposed to be here..
Still...
I am here..


I have exam the whole week....


5 subjects
5 days..


I am still recovering...


Whole sunday my heart feels very pain...
every word he said..
I just feel like crying...


After that day..
wat he said..


I felt like i did something wrong that
will affect stg FOREVER....


What to do...
What is done is  done..


hmm..
now...
even though still feel a bit hurt
because the way he speak..
like..
he was angry at me


But i guess


I deserve it ba..


I am the one who start all this right?


He became like this because of me...


I couldn't blame him...


It's wrong...


SO...


I guess that...


I should live with it...


After all...

I love  him

Exam

hmm..my exam is next week..
3 more days..
my FoM still half half..
my IT also half half
my mass com..not touched
my CSS and CCPD also..
cham la

Just received my 40% of CCPD results just nw..
81..
ok lo...still A

my Mass com...i cant get A aledi...impossible
need 87 for my finals
i think i have to aim for A- oni la..
minimum 62...

Tomolo i watchin Eclipse somemore...
Cham la..
no need study meh

aiksss

wish me luck la><

又心痛了..

我又心痛了...
我今天跟他讲电话时, 心酸酸的...
我的却很累..
我要读书..
伤风..
没心情讲电话..
我知道..
对不起..
我的错...

what is important ..

to me..
what is the most important thing is
to stay happy
to stay healthy
to stay optimistic
no matter what
I will do my best in my studies
chee...
you also must do your best..
I believe you can..
Love you always~

Busy~

Going to start busying again..
doing what???
haih.. a lot la..
List it out:

1. Video Assignment- Editing (due date: 11/6)
2. FM case study (due date: 18/6)
3. CSS response essay ( due date: 17/6)
4. Portfolio ( due date 2/7)
5. Mass Com presentation ( 28/6)
6. 30-hour Famine

wa..a lot right???
haih..today..
can say is the worst day of my life..
and my worst group I ever been into><
Why would I say that...
2 guys didnt turn up..
Cheryl is fine because she is really sick...I understand ..
But the other guy..
Tell me he will come but where is he???
only to know that he is not coming the next day by my friend><
and the 3rd one...
LATE!!!!!!!!!!!
Pls la...if you know u are presenting, and if you know you are the person who always come late to class
Wake up early and leave early!!!if u are late for 10 minutes..its fine...but 1 hour..sorry..unforgivable....!I know its raining outside and very jam..but pls make it a habit la..leave early lo>
when Ms sureka said that we are having another group assignment.. I was afraid she will say that we remain in the same group...when she said no..I was relieved....( finally...not with some useless ppl..sorry for the rudeness here..but I was really angry!!!!)

*If I offended anyone..SORRY..but I am just telling the truth><

幸福~

其实。。
我觉得幸福。。
虽然吵架。。
哭泣。。
我还是觉得幸福。。

我不会选者放弃他。。
不管多痛苦。。
我选择留下来。。

我爱他。。
虽然有时觉得很烦。。
我从来没有要怪他。。
对不起。。
如果你误会了。。

他。。
竟然问我是否要和他拍婚纱照。。
我。。
真的不懂要说什么。。
拍婚纱照。。
是每个女生的梦想。。
穿着美丽的白色婚纱。。
我连做梦也没梦过啦。。
我真的被感动了。。

^^
我真的觉得幸福。。

朋友。。
我觉得我的选择是没有错的。。
也许你们认为我会痛苦。。
就算是伤害。。
我也愿意承担。。

不是他的错。。
我们都有不同的看法。。
只要去了解。。和解。我们就没事了。。

为什么啊?

我不懂要用什么心情写这一个blog..
累？
生气？
我不知道耶。。

我觉得我的生活现在很糟糕。。
一切都乱七八糟的。。
很压力很压力。。
可是没有人能帮啊。。
我觉得读这个blog的人心里一定会想。。
她真的很多问题。。
或者。。
她想太多了。。(一个朋友时常说的）

我真得很想要一个单纯的生活，爱情。。
我不要复杂的。。
我很辛苦。。

我真的是累到一个点了。。
你说我有朋友诉苦。。
你没有。。
其实不是每一件事都能完全可以向朋友诉苦的啊。。
我也有自己的压力。。
我没有要怪你。。
我想叫你好好利用你有的时间。。
休息。。
不要去想那些事。。

人生。。
干吗要弄成这样。。
干吗把自己搞成连女朋友都不懂要怎样去面对你。。
她的朋友说。。
你那么辛苦。。
为什么还跟他在一起？
她说： 因为我很爱他。。不能没有他。。
这是真心话。。

可是每一次他伤心压力。。
向她诉苦时。。
她不懂要怎样回答他。。
要求那个。。
她反对。。
是因为有自己的原因。。
没有要逃避。。

有时。。
他说的话。。
的却伤了她。。
也许。。
她不想吵架。。
所以静静。。
因为她知道。。
只会越吵越闹。。
感情。。也会越来越糟。。

她没有答应要跟他约会。。
不是因为不想。。
只是。。
有些事情。。
她觉得比约会还要重要。。
也许你会觉得她很自私。。
可是她不想大家因为她约会。。
麻烦了大家。。

在她心里。。
永远都有些事。。
比爱情重要。。

他和她不同。。
永远把爱情放第一。。

她很怕。。
迟早会发生不愉快的事情。。
可是。。
她不懂要怎么办 。。
该怎么办啊?

Malacca~

I just came back from Malacca a few days ago..

I can still feel the tiredness of it because our assignments isn't done yet...

There is some more editing to do other than just taking those videos...

During the first day when we went there, it was quite a disaster...

Our first place to go is Orang Utan house...

But when we went there, is already 6.30pm...and the shop is closed...

Then we went to Portuguese settlement to have our shots taken and of course dinner la^^
After that, we went around town and we decided to take the river ride..
It was quite fun...
The scenery was nice too...
Later, we went to a pub at Jonker walk where we sat down and chit chat...
Quite relaxing...

The next day, we decided to go have breakfast before we went to the Duck ride...
And the next thing that happened was..
It rained!!!
Oh gosh..after that, we had to cancelled our trip to the Malacca wonderland.
After that, we decided to have our lunch ( chicken rice) and then we went back to rest..
Then we had a walk at the stadhuys and jonker walk...
Then we went back to have a shower...
After that, we go to have our dinner ( baba nyonya food)..
The worst thing was..
I was starting to fall sick...
Later they decided to go to Taming Sari tower..the view was nice~
Then we decided to walk to Jonker Walk..and my fever was getting worse..
my leg too...
And then..we went to club..
later..I couldn't stand it anymore I decided to ask my friend to send me back before they go to Mamak..I went straight to sleep after I wash up...


Sunday,
we all woke up late...
and we went to Orang Utan house for a video shoot..
Then....
We ate lunch at a western restaurant..
After eating, we walked to the shop opposite to it to have some layer cakes..
It was very nice..
I even brought back 3 pieces^^
Then we went to the Butterfly park...
haih..the condition there was bad for all the animals..
seems like no one was taking good care of it..
Then ..we head back to the house and rest and pack...
Some of them left for KL around 7 something while rest of us head back around 8.30pm

It was tiring but quite fun...^^
Thanks for all the good work guys~

bla~

looks like a long time didn't write my blog here..
so here i am..writing a few words here..
exam is here..wish me good luck!

我的心愿。。

我其实有些心愿。。
只是没说。。
如果今天是我的最后一天。。
我真的会后悔。。
因为还有些事还没完成。。

我no.1心愿是
跟你一起做你喜欢做的事情
除了那个。。其实我不知道你真正喜欢的是什么。。
所以。。
我真的想知道。。
也想跟你一起完成它。。

我no.2的心愿是
和你一起看星星
我知道很愚蠢
但是我想和你一起看。。
因为我喜欢靠在你肩膀的感觉。。

我no.3的心愿是
希望你能陪我去看orchestra
我很喜欢去那个
因为它能让我疏解压力。。
跟你一起看。。
我什么事。。
都不用担心了。。

我no.4的心愿是
不在跟你吵架了。。
对不起。。
我不是故意的。。

我no.5的心愿是
能够永远牵着你的手。。
只要你在我身边。。
就够了。。

我不想太贪心。。
5个心愿就好了。。
麒。。
我要求不多。。
你爱我就好。。
我就满足了^^

New Blog

hey guys..i Have another blog..http://renvin92.blogspot.com
pls check it out!!its another blog of mine but its for my college assignment.
hope you guys will enjoy it^^

Library

I am siting in the library doing my homework...last minute me..haha
dunno why these few days very tired like that....very dizzy a....feel like want to faint...
few days ago the quareling is making me like dying..too much to enter...to much to process...dunno what to do..
today a....my friends and I decided to make up....i didnt make up at first la..but later my friend put eye liner on me...she said i look better..i am quite happy i met them..at least i wont feel lonely la...
tomorrow we decided to wear the taylor's t-shirt..haha..i can save my time thinking what to where tomorrow lo...hehe

bad dream

Bad dream of love....
everyday in confusion...
i want to wake up as soon as possible..very tired....

Again...again...

Another day in college..
I just finished my class...
It was suppose to end at 12 pm but the lecturer let us leave early..
But there are homework to be done..
It has to be done before Friday..
I am so tired..
Not tired about so many homework but not enough sleep..
I couldn't sleep for 2 nights...
Maybe its because of the weather..so HOT!!!
Again..
another problem is him la...
haiz..I know..him....
quarrel again..
actualy.. I don't really want to blame him...
about his addiction...
I am really tired...he said...
I think..one day we will leave each other..
actualy i don't want to hear this..
I don't want him to leave me...
I don't want to leave him too...
when he said he got sickness...
that quite worry me...
he say no need to worry..
but i stilll worry lo...
The frequent quarelling about that matter really make me worry..
frankly speaking..
yesterday I am not that willing to do it..
but he still ask me too..
Actualy..
I was quite angry..
because to me...
that has to get 2 person to agree and must have the willingness..
if don't have..then
it is useless...
no meaning........
right??

College life^^

well...i have started my college life...
its friday and is already the fifth day..still finding some friends to make with..
i had made a few actualy..mostly girls la....my class only have a few guys....
haha..guys already extinct..kidding....
today also is my secondary school's sports day..i wished i could be there but i have class....arghh..and i can't go in...i dyed my hair..haiz..
hope the juniors will perform well...
and their competition too..good luck to them!!
i miss them very much too..my friends in Klang...
the lecturers here are very nice...maybe i haven't see their mean side yet..hope they are not that mean...I only get to meet 2 of the 4 lecturers..Nest week still got^^...
I hope i can survive this college life...People say if u don't know how to swim in this lake..you will drown...
SO..
HOPE I WON'T DROWN!!!
and I DON'T WANT TO!!!!
hehe..wish me luck lo....^^

离别~

明天。。有几位朋友要去ns了。。
我祝福他们。。
一路顺风啦！！
我呢？？
明天要去考undang..
希望能过关啦！
今天早上听说GSC　１　Ｕ　火灾了。。
希望我朋友们都没事啦！！
恩。。。
希望去ＮＳ的朋友们。。。
安全回来哦！！
想念你们！ｍｕａｋｚｚ！！

Next Monday...

wah...next monday is orientation day for my diploma in communication march intake at taylors...
i am a bit nervous...i scared i couldnt make any friends...
some more...i already feel the stress even though i havent start my course..
reason?
I am under Taylors scholarship..i was lucky to get that..even though 30% the first yr only..i felt thankful for the person who gave me the opportunity...but i still need to get good result..
so...wish me luck...hope everything is alright!